Thursday, March 22, 2012

Flip Flops In Athens

I also had the opportunity to share a travel story this week at the first annual Travel Tavern and share a tale about my sister, Katelyn, and I arriving in Athens as we concluded our Cowan European adventure. Here's the story:


Athens in Flip Flops

It was the memory of my sandals hitting the stone road that kept me up. Not the jetlag or the stomach full of rich foreign foods but the incessant “flip flop” noise of each past step sounding and crashing into unknown territory. Thanks to the loud image replaying endlessly in my mind, I lied awake.

It seemed like an easy shoe to travel with, those silver flip flops. Easy to take off for the security check and comfortable enough to endure a cheap crammed seat from a questionable European airline. Matched with my sweatpants, a sweat shirt, and a messy ponytail, I couldn’t imagine arriving in Athens any other way. However, next to my sister my relaxed attire was quite a jarring contrast.

Sculpted curls, face beautifully enhanced with light makeup to appear natural and graceful with flattering clothing that seemed both full of effort and effortless adorned Kate; making her look like she had just walked off the page of a magazine rather than our shaky runway platform. Standing beside her, visibly exhausted from the last few hours spent rocking on a turbulent flight; it was hard to imagine how she still seemed impossibly put together and smiling.

We waited our turn to purchase train tickets to take us to our hostel. After nearly two weeks in Europe, the Greek language seemed just as intimidating and difficult to decipher. Three hours later, after a long deafening train ride and a claustrophobic’s nightmare subway trip, we emerged from underground into a circus of activity like moles peaking outside on the first morning of spring. Armed with our heavy suitcases and an almost comically vague map, we two very obvious Americans stepped out in search of our destination. One eager and optimistic, one anxious and weary.

The trip so far had been deemed a success. Fourteen days of guiltlessly portioning extra dessert, removed from work demands, and distracted enough to allow any wounds of the past to heal just a little bit without fully noticing.

It hadn’t been the easiest winter. After a few scattered incidents of crying in greasy fast food restaurant seats, sleeping more than a coma patient, and stomping my way through tattered remains of my expectations, my sister helped me to focus on a trip, thus providing the ultimate medicine. Suddenly my gloom was replaced with the promise of European delights in the form of new foods, strong caffeinated beverages that would put my beloved Kuerig to shame, and the adventure unknown awaiting in ancient architecture. So we planned quickly; scooping last minute internet deals on airfare and securing our homes away from home. With some very limited laptop clicks, an entire trip and been organized. Our only task was to find a pet sitter, start packing, and distract ourselves until we left.

Athens was our final destination before returning back to the reality of the lives left behind. For Kate, she could be happy anywhere. And while I know she greatly enjoyed our times abroad, I swear I could almost see her muster a similar amount of excitement for an evening of cleaning our apartment. I continued to cling to our vacation gaining needed energy in new places and sites. Here, in these undiscovered corners, my past mistakes had a harder time finding me. Without familiar smells and the haunts of the alternative version of myself, I felt lighter than I had in months.

Well, excluding the time in between hostels when I was forced to haul my suitcase. A victim of over packing and a need to constantly layer clothing had taken a toll on my cat clawed luggage with a broken wheel. Each time we ventured into a new city, we relied on our own strength and sensibilities to get our belongings to their temporary new dwelling. Luckily for us, our map reading skills generally proved to be fairly decent after being forced at an early age by our father to develop a sense a navigation.

And so we assumed in this final attempt, finding our hostel would be a piece of cake. However, with our unclear internet directions, the bags only managed to get heavier and heavier with each clipped step. Painful red blisters formed on my raw hands while my stomach howled aching for a proper meal outside of airline convenience. As I started to slip into a sulk, my endlessly graceful sister, glided forward.

Thirty minutes of excess grunting, sweating, and complaining later, I was reaching a breaking point. Kate remained incessantly optimistic that our haven was soon approaching. I learned then, in an instant, that if you take a simple moment to catch your breath, you ultimately provide the perfect amount of time to attract the attention of a Greek gentleman. In this case, two. They spotted us from their small street kiosk where they were working. The younger of the pair looked my sister up and down and with his sparked glance and in broken English, offered a hello.

My sister grinned, her big white teeth breaking out into the late hour and asked if he could help point us in the direction of our hostel. The man actively grabbed her map and directions in an attempt to unlock their secrets. He moved like his life depended on it. “I’ll take you,” he smiled slowly, “it’s not too far.” And with a nod to the older man he stepped away, his longer dark hair catching a street light.

Kate beamed and followed behind, finally exposing my presence. The man’s face revealed a look of surprise before it darkened, like the sun being quickly drowned in clouds before a storm. He sighed and walked closer to Kate as I continued to trudge behind, forever struggling with my things.

The man began to immediately speak of Athens in a stream of warnings. Which I considered a bold and surprising choice. I thought his flirtation skills could use some finesse. Though, I guess since the “come here often” question had been taken off the table maybe this was his go to move. Maybe outside of America, the small talk is tossed aside to get right down to scaring the ladies. And with that curiosity, I listened to his words.

He cautioned that men here were aggressive and dangerous. All of them. Continuing to stress how treacherous the city could be at night; specifically the very street where my flip flops currently cracked along. The man continued with cautions regarding theft and advised being watchful with our belongings because it was a common practice for tourists to lose things to sneaky hands. He said that we should never allow a stranger to hold our belongings, even if they seemed kind, because almost always, they would steal it.

It was then that my silver flip flop caught a crack in the street causing me to lunge forward with a loud “whack”. The man smiled at my sister, turned around, and asked if I wanted him to carry my bag. I answered him with a questioning stare. Now, I hadn’t really found this guy to be particularly kind but he was certainly a stranger to me. Was this a joke? Considering his flirtation technique, maybe this was him showcasing his silly side. Was he trying to teach me a lesson? Why would he stumble through his English to speak only of men taking bags and then immediately offer his service? Not wanting to actually know that answer, I shook my head and pleaded with each and every Greek god to grant me strength. And avoided looking down to my now throbbing foot and broken toenail.

Since I’m sure those Greek gods had nothing better to do but listen to my cries, I thank them for ending our struggle and getting us to our final home away from home. I wiped the bangs that were now plastered to my forehead to the side and offered a thank you to our helper. Shockingly, he ignored me and put his attention onto Kate.

“If you want to reach me, you can come back to my store. I’ll give you a tour of the city,” he said hopefully. I’m almost positive you could hear the sound of my eyes rolling. I suddenly felt very much like a wicked stepsister keeping the beautiful princess hostage under his presence.

“Okay! Thank you!” Kate waved and stepped into the hostel entrance. I peaked behind to watch him disappear back into the darkness. She turned her attention to my shoe. It had been split open. The soul ripped in two. For a moment Kate’s face seemed darker than I had seen it but within a blink she exclaimed something about always wanting to go shopping for authentic Gladiator shoes and took the backpack from my hold. I welcomed the weight releasing from my shoulders while accepting the demise of sandal and closed the door, promising my stomach that our late dinner was only a shoe change away.

Ode to Theater Pub

Hi there, blog. Been awhile, huh? Well, considering I've been neglecting you for about a year now, here's an attempt to get some writing down and documented.

Recently, I had the privilege to be involved with Theater Pub's March project which consisted of 19 odes dedicated to the living, breathing beauty of the Theatre and all the many feathers that create its wings to fly. I acted, directed, and wrote for this event and had a blast being challenged in multiple ways. And here are my written contributions:

Ode To The Set Designer

You create thriving theatrical space
The world of our dreams, destined to live true.
A picture brought to breathe, finding its grace.
A stage blessed with vision, awake it grew
Under your construction stories danced home.
Pages partnered with a thoughtful design,
Developed vivid imaginations.
We all thank you for the physical poem,
A new environment set to align
With play, for endless continuation.

Ode To The Producer

Writer:
I grant you my words, the depth of my soul.
But when I depart them,
I sometimes forget who fosters them,
Who cares for them like a gardener patiently awaiting the spring.
Who allows them to grow from bits on a page to a life on the stage.

Director:
You finder of gems, you keeper of jewels.
With your wisdom, you hand me the keys to create.
To transform and evolve.
Your gifts of balance and coordination are so desired by this theatrical dance.
And though it’s likely I’ll now try to take the lead and most of the credit
Please allow me to thank you for your trust. And your money.

Actor:
I always eat as much food as I can whenever it magically appears at a rehearsal.
I seldom think about how it got there.
Because, you know,
I’m pretty busy getting into character.
Though, I am always on the lookout for free food.
But I guess that was you, huh?
Well, thanks.

Producer:
You’re welcome.
Yes, that was me.
The mover of ideas.
I’m the one overseeing the business, the finances, the visions, the hopes, and the dreams. Like a cook, I’ve assembled each ingredient of the creative team
In hope to make a delicious feast, some food for thought.
I breathe in budgets and schedules.
I’m a genie trying to grant the wish of a play, an experience.
I invest in goals and make leaps of faith.
You may not notice me in the wings or behind the scenes…
If I’ve done my job, it’s the play you’ll remember.
The beauty of a story.
But if you peak behind that bliss, maybe you’ll see my fingers, pushing life onwards.

Ode to the Casting Director

Hello, my name is Ashley Cowan and today I will be doing a monologue from…

Oh, hello, there Casting Director, how do you do?
I’m here to prove, I’m worthy of you!

So please take your eyes off my resume and at least slightly appreciate my dress
I took hours thinking about it and choosing what look may impress.

I get only two minutes to show you I can act AND remember the words to my monologue
Which I hope you could pick up even if you were blind and needed a seeing eye dog.

But seriously, I went to school for this. I really trained hard
I’m super educated on Checkov, Ives, and especially the Bard

Just listen to how great my voice sounds right here, in the space
And all these several varied emotions I can show with my face!

Okay, that was one was supposed to make you laugh and yet you just sit and stare
I wish I could tell you a lack of response is almost more than I can bear.

Do you realize the fate you hold in your hand
What more can I do to make you understand?

I try to show you a glimpse of my… no wait, I heard that you’re gay
So none of these lady parts may interest you much anyway.

But my stomach’s in knots even though I’ve made a career of rejection
Turns out failure can only offer so much in terms of protection

Often, I’ve learned to let it all roll of my back
But sometimes it sticks and it’s like an attack.

There are no A students in this business, no guarantee of success
And even I, the lover of the craft, struggle more than you’d guess

I see the other girls here looking polished and pretty,
Stop to reflect on all the beauty of this city

Maybe one of these strangers could become a real friend
But for now they’d all kill me for a chance to pretend.

They all want it, sure, but I swear I want it the most
And I promise, I’m good! Though I still hate to boast.

So before you, I stand and I blush and I tremble
I’m promise I’m trying, regardless of what I resemble

Just striving to stand out of that crowd
For this quick opportunity to make you proud

I trust your talent and years of insight
Assembling casts to forever shine bright

You mastered the art of matching actors to roles
Impacted audiences and numerous impressionable souls.

We’ll hear the voices you pick, see the faces you deemed as strong
But really, if you don’t choose me, I think you’ll be wrong.

Just kidding. You know I trust your vision and skill
I only long for this chance, this chase, this thrill.

And I truly thank you for all that you do
And wish quite dearly I’ll be one of your few-

Okay, thank you. Thank you, very much…

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Less Facebook. More Faces and Books.

Last night, after not a whole lot of thought and deliberation, I decided to deactivate my Facebook account.

I know. Seems like a decision that deserves a lot of time and consideration. Regardless, I found my fingers easily clicking through the series of prompts and agreeing to disable my page. Rest assured, I can return at any time and everything should be exactly how I left it. Phew. But once I thought about what I had done I could feel my body relax and silently thank me.

Lately I've felt like there are two people living inside of me. The "Facebook Ashley" who broadcasts endless (but edited) experiences with the world and the shy little girl who quietly grew older to live a private existence. I spent my childhood holding my tongue and observing the world around me. Countless observations and a window into human habits have molded me into the woman that now sits to write this. It's been a long journey and I've definitely developed in the process. What I don't share on Facebook is all the thinking I actually do about the path of our existence and about philosophy and about my genuine fears. Often those things are hidden by youtube clips of puppies or the inspiring quotes from my students. Or the details of one of my disastrous falls into oncoming traffic. And I love being able to share my life in a fairly public setting in hopes that others will find my ups and downs amusing or entertaining. But I don't want to sustain that all the time.

At least, not without a little vacation. So it's time for some rest and relaxation. I'll be back to the fast paced life of Facebook soon enough but with all the time I spend Facebooking, I could actually be having more face to face connections. Or reading more books. It's worth a try anyway.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Acupuncture: A Jab Well Done

It was always my hope to put the pun in acupuncture. Now after finally experiencing it I feel like I'm one step closer to my goal.

I'm sure you're all on pins and needles wondering about my latest adventure. Well, as the title hints, it was a mighty trip. An activity that I probably wouldn't have considered without the aid of Groupon and a friend of mine who couldn't make his appointment. I completely lucked out with this opportunity and I'm amused to be so grateful for having had the chance to be stuck with a bunch of needles.

Acupuncture bases a lot of its principles around meridians. A means to connect internal organs with the external ones through stimulating specific surface points to encourage blood circulation and the flow of qi. To accomplish this, my doctor spent a few minutes feeling my pulse and reading the story enfolding with every heart beat. Apparently, my inner book is a "strong pulse that struggles with dampness". With only 30 seconds spent feeling this strong pulse of mine he was also able to decode things I had been holding on to emotionally. I try so hard to put on a brave face sometimes that it fascinated me to know that my mask really only runs skin deep; beyond the surface lies a truth that so often stays silent.

I then moved onto my back with a pillow under my knees and was quickly pinned down by a series of needles in my arms, legs, feet, and face. Each prick brought on a slightly different sensation. At times I could actually feel an immediate reaction with a tingle down to my toes. The doctor then put on a heat lamp near my legs, turned the lights down lower, and put on a CD of relaxing music featuring a wooden flute. He also gifted me with a neck message before leaving me alone with my thoughts and freely flowing qi. After he left the room, I was graced with twenty minutes of focused meditation in this new environment (that I quietly declared to be comically romantic) to dry up that defined dampness rumored to be dancing in my pulse.

When the doctor came back he asked me how I felt and I burst out, "it feels like my body is humming!" And he laughed. I guess patients don't usually articulate their sessions like that. But overall, I truly felt like my body had a chance to uncover a song that had gone unsung for a long time. He concluded our time together by rechecking my pulse and confirming that the beat of my heart seemed to be answering to a new medley. And I left with the regret that my insurance doesn't cover acupuncture or a recording contract for the tunes my body now wants to jam about.

But if you can get it covered or perhaps the next time Groupon offers the chance, I highly suggest seizing each and every pun that acupuncture can offer you. And sticking to it!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Lift And Laugh

As the official fall equinox approaches it seems to be ushering in some unexpected twists and hopeful beginnings. One new development involves getting a new job.

Now, before I talk can talk about it in too much detail, I must first receive the results of my tests. In order to work for this company I have to prove that I don't have TB and I have to complete a physical.

Both things sound sort of terrible to me. I've always had a hard time with shots; the nurses often have a hard time getting the goods out and my skin usually feels pretty angry about the whole situation and bruises more than anyone expects. Luckily, this experience wasn't the end of the world. I had a sweet talkative nurse and she treated me well. She had a pretty thick accent and went on to discuss that she thought I would do well on the next test because I seemed like "a smart girl".

I then asked, "what next test? Do I need to take a written test too?" And she replied, "No. The physical!"

I reported downstairs and waited for a confused fifteen minutes holding gauze on my slightly bloody arm. Finally, a smiley older man eagerly introduced himself and brought me into a physical therapy room and taught me how to squat and pick up heavy things. It was sort of cute. He was just so excited to help me pick up so many heavy things! My test consisted of me completing some physical activities like a series of sit ups, stretches, and lifts. It wasn't at all the physical exam I had imagined. Luckily though, I had just come from the gym so I passed. Phew. I got an earnest handshake from my tester and a smile full of well wishes.

I'll find out the results of my TB test tomorrow... and if all goes according to plan I'll start my new job on Monday, afternoon teaching begins again on Wednesday, and Tony N Tina's is mere weeks away from reopening. Here we go, fall!

Friday, September 17, 2010

Never A Bored Gamer

Once upon a time there was a starving artist. In an attempt to make ends meet until her fall jobs began she decided to take a trip though the magical kingdom of the craigslist gig's section. There she found her destiny in a post entitled "Game Night Hosts".

Yes, that gal is me. And after tonight's festivities I can now claim myself as a professional Game Night Host after living many years as an unpaid intern. I applied for this gig because Magic Theatre was closed for the evening and I'm still a few days away from my permanent positions and the financial promises that come with them. Apparently my eagerness for games conveyed over a quick phone interview was enough to land me the job.

Oh, and what a job it was. A corporate event for Zynga which was themed as an 80's board game happy hour party. Endless pizza, beer, 80's tunes, and games for gamers. Heaven, right? My job was to set up the games and the old school Nintendo systems. Amusingly enough, I had no problem with the old equipment but struggled greatly trying to set up the new Wii systems. Ah, technology. I then got to act as an information booth to any incoming questions the participants had concerning their board game choices. (Oh, and there were so many choices! Beyond Apples to Apples and Taboo and Loaded Questions and Scattergories and Catch Phrase and... okay, I'll stop. But just know there were eight thirty pound boxes containing their options.)

The experience was also a very amusing social window that I snuck a peak into. After working so many jobs in the non profit world it was fascinating to see how creatures on other professional planets live and how they're influenced by their environment. The crowd was dominantly males fresh out of college who were all in love. In love with video games!

Now, I know how guys feel about video games. I have a brother who bought and traded in more systems than I knew existed. But it wasn't until tonight that I could truly watch their effect over a large population. On came the old school Nintendo and it was as if a magnet turned on. Suddenly all eyes glazed over and became fixed upon the television. The music was mind numbing and the dated graphics were jarring but that dominating screen became the sole object of desire.

And there was no competition. No lady or meat product or a meat product designed to look like a lady could interrupt their endless love. And is that Nintendo going to cuddle them like a lady and/or a meat product lady would? Maybe. But maybe not.


So since no one needed me to do anything but stand and stare I began to wonder how I could make myself more like a video game. How to: create a look and sound that's hypnotic, be challenging and interesting enough to withstand the test of time, and yet still be rewarding of fine game achievement. But through trying to humanize the characteristics of a video game I just creeped myself out. Now, I'm not totally giving up on this "become a video game" idea yet. But it may just have to wait another day. Perhaps games are meant to be played and not embodied. And isn't the best part of the gaming experience to play together anyway?

As usual, I'm left with only more questions. But thankfully, I also left with a check that'll provide some nutrition for this starving artist and an amusing evening of host experience.

This fairy tale is far from over.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Red Robin Gets The Herp


This afternoon, my sister, Katelyn (there's your shout out, you creep) basked in a thoroughly enjoyable Italian influenced late afternoon. Full of North Beach's finest treasures: thin crusted margherita pizza, chocolate hazelnut and cinnamon swirled gelato, and artfully constructed warm cappuccinos. After filling up on treats, we took to the streets. Hoping to at least walk off some of our food coma.



And then from across the crosswalk I heard a young voice thunder out.


"Hey Red Robin! ... Oh! You gots herpes on your lip!"

Yes. It appears to be that time of year again. Usually the discussion begins in a theatre class with my younger students but this fall it started thanks to an outspoken teenager. Who may or may not have been admiring my red coat only to become distracted by mouth. The distraction being: "that thing on my lip".


No, it's not a herpes outbreak or a zit. It's just a birthmark. So in case you've been secretly wondering too... there you go. I hope.

Once my full stomach and questionable mouth had dropped I turned to Katelyn in surprise. Without missing a step, she suggested that we take a cable car back home and leave the thoughts of teenagers in North Beach. So we hopped aboard with a crowd of tourists. Birthmark and all. Besides, red robins are known for their continuous cheerful carols; the bird that sings first as dawn arrives and last as evening settles. Hurt feelings aside, the song must go on so sing I shall.